Showing ourselves love can be difficult.
The guilt that comes from taking a moment can be paralyzing.
Surely there are more pressing needs than say, oh, getting a pedicure or a massage right?
Anybody that knows me, knows I love a good pedicure. I pay extra so I can have 50 minutes of foot pampering complete with hot stone massage and paraffin wax. And I absolutely love my salon. Relaxation music plays, the atmosphere is quiet and peaceful and no TV! They offer a lavender scented heated shoulder pad to add to your comfort and I love them for this!
As much as I enjoyed my pedicures, I was under a lot of stress like most folk and my body ached.
What I needed was a massage but somehow in my mind that was too decadent. Way too luxurious.
I told myself a hot shower would fix it. I couldn’t afford a massage is what I told myself. Well, a pedicure and a half and I would have had my massage money.
But my throwed-off thinking said a massage was too much and I believed my throwed- off thinking.
As my feet soaked in fragrant warm water the rest of me ached.
So I made an appointment and canceled it.
I talked myself out of it but I was still hurting.
I made another appointment.
Yep, canceled that one too.
I kept telling myself that a massage was too much.
Then I wondered if judgement would be cast since I wasn’t the smallest flower in the bunch?
I didn’t want to be judged.
I talked myself out of it. I told myself it was too far and who would drive that far for a massage.
Then came the deal I couldn’t refuse.
I made the appointment and then made it difficult and fiscally unsound for me to cancel.
The beautiful soul with anointed hands massaged the pain away. The pain in my heart melted too.
In that moment, that throwed-off thinking was exposed as nothing but a lie.
The thoughts that said I wasn’t worthy of such pampering, care and attention knew I was and worked pretty hard to keep me from healing that was rightfully mine.
That day was the beginning of my own radical self-care.
It was the day I began to love myself and silence the noise that said I wasn’t worthy.
Truth is I am and so are you.
So what have you been withholding from yourself?
#ThisWomanKnows you are definitely worthy.
Loving yourself silently and inwardly screams to the world, I AM WORTHY.
Watch what opens to you and for you when you walk in this knowledge and confidence.